Destiny Take Over

its one of those days when we can easily grab a passing opportunity. A few hours surfing the web with a powerfull keyword, corresponding with certain people, downloading materials and uploading resumes..and loo you have a fantastic opportunity put by the Almighty in your hands.

such a temptation it is that it could make us partially blind, not physically but rather emotionally. So it lead me to a $150 inevitable option although a quite large sum for me, you can not say it immposible. the main problem lay in the payment method. All in all the matter we're settled, a bit late but just fine and if you think of it, its kind of luck actually.



so there i am in a beautiful sunday morning, nervous, because i am going to attend a TOEFL iBT test without much practice, if you compare with others. I took my regular bag and some pencils, off i go, its 09.00. a well planned morning.

Disaster could happen and strike you cold in the heart without notice. that was what happen to me when i open my bag and could not find my ID card, latter i found it inside my scaner at home. No ID no entrace and you can forget your money..but then i remember..i still have another ID, the one issued by my parent's home local civil office.

i explain the situation to the exam supervisor, and handed the second ID with my ice-felt arms, he examine it and stated it will be acceptable..ahh what a relieve, its 09.45, and disaster is still looming. Long before the noon break i realise that my keys are not where it suposse to be, with a red face i raise an arm and confer with the supervisor, he give a smile and say no i can't go downstairs myself but he will.

nothing happen after that, my keys safe in my pocket this time, just doing my best with speaking and writing section. My wife laugh at me when i tell her what happen earlier, it was a grand day and silly things just happen after all preparation, people say we can't escape destiny. so its destiny then when i receive notice from ETS saying that i have a magnificent 102 out of 120.

it occured to me that, in order to gain we must lose first, no pain no gain, and its seem to become a habit of me..for example i have to lose my birth certificate, the original one, its just vanished and the reward is 6 year of medical school, destiny take over. Destiny is such a tricky matter, we can plan and work but result and outcome lay in divine authority, it is the reason that we must pray, preserve our hope and fear, khauf and raja'...